2nd Day of Post Diet Diet

So far, this new diet is not going as planned :P

It is just too difficult on a weekend to keep to a planned diet. Sometimes when you are out and about, it is just not practical to look for no fat, balanced carb and protein meals. Even eating at home, it is too much of an imposition to have my family suffer the low cal food just because of me, so i'd rather just eat what everybody else is eating. The fact that i have to keep meals small and eat 5 meals alone requires some getting used to as well.

Had a couple of protein shakes so far, they were alright, and could last me 2.5 to 3 hours. Tomorrow back to work would be a better gauge as a workday is more routine and meal times more regular.

Friday was the wedding, yesterday was the post-wedding delivery, had to help the bride and groom run errands like returning of the gowns and suits, transporting of the unconsumed alcohol etc. Got 2 bottles of wine for my effort *grin*.

Having been in close proximity with the groom the past 2 days has really caused me to start re-examining our strained relationship. It is evident that he has come a long way since a year back. But i still have that fear of being overly depended upon which i felt was a real problem back then. I don't mind being depended upon but i mind having my helpful disposition abused. Anyways, they are flying off to Paris for their 2 week honeymoon so that'll leave me some time for thoughtful reflections. But it is likely that i'll go with the flow and see how things progress from there.

Oh, i'm sure that it was the alcohol talking, but the most uncomfortable moment during the wedding was when i posed for a pic with the groom and he called me his best friend. I definitely don't feel the same way, no where near... but i kinda hope he sees it too. Sounds so much like unrequited love, maybe because it is. Then again, i'm sure we all had suffered varying degrees of this at one time or another.

A couple more shots from the 26th floor, if you are familiar with the Singapore landscape, this was taken from the Concorde Hotel. Thanks Kevin for trying, you'll get a complimentary tea drink on Tuesday, haha.

Photos From Level 26

Almost 6am and still no end in sight for this crappy exercise :(

Started getting sleepy from 3am onwards but could not get to sleep probably because no comfortable snooze spots can be found...

Anyway, while waiting for them to figure out what's wrong, i decided to post a few pics i took on the wedding night:


The roof of the hotel, looks kinda spooky.



A shot looking down from level 26, was worried i'll drop my camera



My favourite shot, was quite an impressive hotel, any guesses which hotel?

Yummmmmmm Seng!

Whoa, what an eventful day yesterday… despite the hangover this morning, I feel that its worth the discomfort, haha

The bride sms-ed me the night before asking me to show up earlier because they wanted to decorate the ah yee car… but I did not know they wanted to tie ribbons on the boot and bonnet as well *roll eyes*

The groom’s other “brother” did the ribbon tying, not exactly professional lah but at least can tell he has done this before. For ease of reference, I shall refer to him as Bragger because I can’t stand all his bragging about stuff like wanting to get a cherry picker to raise the groom up to the bride’s window, getting welding equipment to cut open the bride’s lock *severe roll eyes* He came up with such suggestions because he seems to have kang tao for every damn thing under the sun.

The trip to the bride’s place was relatively painless. The main door was wide opened despite Bragger bringing along an electronic drill and safety goggles *eyes too tired to roll at the moment* What the “sisters” did instead was to form a line in front of the bedroom door and insisted the groom finish a drink. I gathered that it was not unpleasant tasting so that was easy enough. Then they wanted the groom and his “brothers” to sing and dance. WTF, I hate stuff like that… but fortunately the groom said “leave them out of this”. When he said that, I felt a certain sense of pride in him because I think this was partially borne from our falling out over a year back, I labeled him insensitive and self-centered and somehow I do see the change in him.

First surprise came when the roast pig was delivered to the groom’s place… which means someone had to carry it over later. Hmmm, I wonder who could it be. Moi of course, because between me and Bragger, me would be the more erm…. physically unchallenged one. The groom wanted to carry it himself but I did not let him because it was not appropriate and the pig was oily, and he is too short and out of shape. :P The weight of the pig surprised me, despite my working out, my arms were shivering in the lift because of the weight. After delivering the pig, and after the tea ceremony there, the question was posed as to what was to be done with the pig. The bride’s mum said the pork seller is supposed to cut it up. The rest were puzzled, and wondered what pork seller she was talking about. She thought it was me -_- WTF??? Do I fucking look like a pork seller? Geez. Yeah yeah, joke about it go ahead. No char siew for you!

Due to a delay in schedule and a few unexpected loose ends to tie up, I only managed to get home, shower, change, msn for 5 minutes and head out for the dinner. Did not want to drive, so had to book a cab as I was late already. Had to oversee the dinner arrangements so met up with the banquet manager at 5pm for the briefing. We had some chill time before the dinner started so I decided to bring down all the stuff myself from the room to the ballroom. I caught them in the middle of their own staff briefing and it went something like that:

Today 29th October 2004 is the wedding of Mr so-and-so to so-and-so. We will have cocktails starting at 7pm and dinner will be served between 8pm and 8.45pm. First dish is this this this, second dish is this this this…. for dessert, we have this this this. OK, everyone close your menus. You, what is the 3rd dish? You, what is dessert?

I was like :O

Need to memorize meh, so high-class-wannabe siaz. To prevent their efforts from going to waste, I should have gone around during dinner and approach all the waiters/waitresses to ask “You, what is the 5th dish?” and “tell me the bride’s name” etc. Haha.

Dinner ended smoothly for the guests despite a few hiccups for us. We went up to the bridal suite to enjoy the 6 jugs of beer provided free by the banquet manager :) Unfortunately, of the 8 of us upstairs, the bride and groom had enough liquor for the night while another “sister” was driving, I helped down a jug on my own and my urine reeked of beer/alcohol smell this morning. The drinking session got a little outta hand though, Bragger and another “drinking brother” got so noisy that the neighbours lodged a complaint to security. Haha, that kinda dampened our moods.

I Am Drunk, I Think So Lah

After 8 beers and 2 brandies... i think i am drunk now. Surprisingly i am still in control of my thoughts, but i cannot say the same for my co-ordination though haha.... tried to walk a straight line 5 times but failed, haha... talked a lot of cock tonight so it was all fun.

Unfortunately, i cannot keep my eyes opened and the typing is killing me so i will report more after i had my good sleep *yawn*

Another Over-Nighter

Oh CRAP! This Sunday morning have to come back to office in the wee hours again. I absolutely hate that… it kinda means that I will have to nap on Saturday afternoon and turn up to office just before midnight. So I asked the guy what time my 2 systems are coming up, and the guy in charge said system 1 between midnight and 1am, system 2 between 1am and 4am. WTF? 1am to 4am is 3 fucking hours excuse me, you mean you cannot decide on a more accurate time than that? Oh, depends on how long it takes to complete the job, but you can help out with other things in the meantime.

-_-

Whatever, shit head.

So if I get home after 6am (exercise ends at 6am actually), that means I will hit the sack and sleep till late afternoon :( Haiyah, this really screws up my weekend I tell you.

Just asked my colleague whether for the last exercise he claimed off and he said yes. WTF, they never offered time off what. He said must ask for it or else they just keep quiet. Fuckers you know, this time around I WILL ask for it, enough of letting them cheat my weekend time.

Anyways, tomorrow on leave because I’m helping out at my colleague’s wedding. Driving the Ah Yee car during the daytime. Tempted not to drive to the dinner so that I can get drunk and hitch a ride home…. haha. But being the supposed guy in charge of dinner co-ordination, I don’t know if it’s a good idea to get tipsy. The only other time in my life when I got drunk was earlier this year when we went pub hopping and finally landed up in Tabz. By the time we got to Tabz (which was our fourth stop) I was stumbling up the stairs leading to level 3.

Aiyah, not the chiak lat stumbling, hands waving, song singing, vulgarities swearing kind of drunk lah, but I could tell my co-ordination was a bit off. :P

Anyway, the groom was going thru some last minute stuff with me the other night, then he started telling me all the problems he had been facing leading up to his wedding. After our falling out over a year back, we have not had many personal talks like that and somehow I still feel uncomfortable returning back to that level of friendship we used to have. Geez, I just hope he doesn’t expect that from me just because I have agreed to help out. Not that I’m unforgiving, but he’s just so self-centered and I kinda gotten frustrated with his crap.

I Hate the Future Me

I hate hunks, i really do... not that i feel inferior to them, i just think they are so unattractive and ugly. Yesterday at the gym, this hunk had to get totally naked next to me and dry himself slowly... of course i did not give him the satisfaction so i pointed my butt towards him *pui* not everyone goes for hunks ok.

Then why the fuck am i trying so desperately to be one? *scratches head* (then the backside then the balls). Truth be told, my bone structure prohibits me from having the lean and tone look, my bones are like that of dinosaurs' (no kastaway, i mean they are as big as dinosaurs', not as old, asshole).

Like i told Kevin, i feel so hypocritical, becoming someone whom i hate. Why am i bringing this up? It is nothing new but having varied my workout the past week or two, i just found my bicep growing by like 20% in the past 10 days. Its happening a little too quickly and the reality is beginning to sink in, and i'm like constantly questioning my intentions.

I know why i'm doing all these, to be more attractive. But i just don't know if that is a good enough reason or not. Why can't i be of a smaller build? Average build, average height is all good. Big boned and tall, its just so wrong.

At the yong tau hoo stall yesterday, the lady kept asking me to xiao xing, xiao xing, she was afraid i knock my head on her signboard. Stupid signboard, raise it higher lah, all your customers so short meh? What i can't stand is she kept telling her husband how tall i was and in danger of knocking her stupid signboard *roll eyes*.

Oh, then there is this coffee shop we frequent, the guy who collects the money sits below a hanging tv, and everytime after my food is ready, they put it in front of the "cashier" and i will knock my head on the tv rack while paying. You'd think i will be smart enough but i'm not lor, i knocked my head 4 consecutive times despite each time telling myself to pay extra attention to the tv. CCB. Baluku.

Social Life Suicide

Hmmm… I’m in a bit of a pickle, assuming that I follow my post diet diet strictly, I can only eat unhealthy food once a week. If I plan to follow the training schedule strictly, I would need to go gym every weekday night and either on Saturday or Sunday. Every weekday dinner will be a post-workout protein shake. So my social life how?

This new problem challenged me 2 nights back when we were discussing what we are doing for our next outing and they said “eat this this this” or we can have “that that that” and I was like wait wait wait… as if I was not already a royal pain in the neck forcing them to eat relatively low carb food the past almost 2+ months, now I’m telling them I can’t socialize anymore. Actually can lah, go and watch them eat while I drink my protein shake.

Same goes for my scheduled meeting with Kevin next week, we are just meeting for coffee but I had to ask what drinks do they serve… alamak, I so tai tai I tell you. Having to lay off caffeine means coffee and tea is out, and that includes Diet Coke as well. Laying off sugar means soft drinks are out. Oh, that means that as long as they serve plain water I’m fine lor, GEEZ.

Talking about Diet Coke, I wonder what Diet Sprite tastes like….wonder wonder wonder, I wonder where I can get it, wonder wonder wonder. *turns to fyxxit* Just one can will do, if that’s allowed on-board. HAHA, I’m shameless.

Anyways, I essentially need to learn how to balance off this diet crap and my social life. One of my dinner kakis is currently going thru a rough patch now which makes me all the more NOT want to cancel all social engagements. Haiz, I should stop complaining now.

Oh, not yet, one more gripe I need to get off my chest. 5 small meals a day, and have to eat every 2 to 3 hours. One of the meals can be a protein shake (haha, sounds like something naughty) comprising protein powder and skim milk, but how the hell is that going to last me 2 to 3 hours? I don’t get it lor. Haha, u guys will find out this weekend when my journey begins.

My Prawn Noodles Got Worms

Was so surprised to find out that Jes and i had dinner at virtually the same place last night, the restaurant i was at is just next to where he was eating... luckily did not bump into him or else all my food will be gone siaz.

Funny thing happened during dinner last night, i wrote it on the following jpg:



Helped Jes last night to upload an mp3. Don't know what's up with his PC, keeps getting an error message. He ain't a computer expert for sure, haha :P He said i was patient, but i think he over-say already :)

Had a medical appointment first thing this morning, saw a really cute intern doctor... and he entered my doctor's consultation room, YAY!!! Gave him a big smile when i went into the room, he nodded and smiled back... geez man, luckily this type of appointment don't need to drop my pants :P Oops, a fantasy just entered my mine... and it involves that doctor examining me.... doctor, i can't seem to cum, can u show me the correct way... haha, sick.

After getting back to the office, first thing the auditor wanted was an interview, haiz.... here we go again...

auditor: your policy mentioned blah blah blah, but it is not performed...
me: this pose no risk, and the purpose of the policy serves as a deterrent only.
auditor: but you see.... but i think that... well maybe....
me: (sensing her awkward disposition) wait... don't feel bad to raise this as a point, you have to do what you have to while we will answer to the points you raise, i got no problems with that
auditor: (sheepishly) oh ok, haha, the thing is i seldom come across clients who have such high (security) standards

Haha! i just got complimented on my job *wide grin... a kastaway grin*, too bad it is only the outsiders who appreciate what we are doing and not my own 2 bosses. Makes me want to leave this job even more and let them handle the crap themselves.

Ended today with a trip to the gym, geez, many cuties there tonight, both my No.2 and No.3 were around, and i exchanged a few glances with No.2, haha. Oh, maybe i should explain, i number the cuties because i don't know their names, so i relate them via my ranking system. Too bad No.1 was not there tonight, else i could have a mental orgy with all 3 of them.

Goodbye SAFRA Bukit Merah

Sinful, absolutely sinful. My buffet steamboat dinner at Marina South was so wrong in terms of my dieting but i don't care lah... once in a while must indulge a bit. Will need to pay for it the next few days at the gym but so what, heh heh.

I have this on-going contest with my auntie colleague, we play Lom Chiam Pas whenever we get to a traffic light. Lame lah, but it kills time i guess. 10 games make one set. Three sets won and the other party buys dinner. After more than a year, i have never lost 3 sets before, but she has lost about 10 dinners to me already. Hey, before you draw your conclusions, i have never taken advantage of this, each time she lost and bought dinner, i would buy the next round as we have always done. Anyway, i won a set earlier and i won it with a "bird"... being so happy with myself, i held my bird sign to rub it in. She then unknowingly asked "show your bird so long for what?" I replied "if i show my bird short short then you will laugh lor" Haha.

At SAFRA Bukit Merah gym yesterday, this guy was telling another guy "take your time, today is the last weekend". Hmmm... wonder why that guy is no longer coming back... maybe he got tired of the "all-in-one" soap dispenser (all-in-one as in soap, shampoo and lubricant). Or perhaps he wanted more upmarket machines... then i found out, this is the last week of SAFRA BM because this weekend it shifts to the new Mount Faber SAFRA. Oh no!!! I don't really frequent this branch but i actually signed up for my gym membership here, and for me it holds a certain level of nostalgia. I even used to work in this building many years back when my then employer rented some space in the building. Anyway, like the chinese saying goes, old things don't go, new things don't come, so i guess must look forward. But hor, they going to shift the old gym equipment over so it kinda tells u something also lor.

Oh, was chatting with someone on MSN last night and i sent him my pic... he said i was good looking *looks on the floor with a shy grin*.... that was my first ever gay compliment on my looks ever... so far i only get the "good looking" comment from str8 guy friends, and female friends and colleagues before. OK, maybe its because i not in the gay circles that much, but that comment totally made my day. I feel like a shallow slut, haha.

Before and After

Why am i still on my old diet? At first i told myself i needed to finish off my stock of low carb food... then i told myself i need to get some stuff to organise my post diet diet, but analysing my pathetic self, it is just that i'm a coward. I am afraid to go on this diet because i fear that i will put on weight. Which i find totally stupid lor, if it does not work then just revert back lor. But i think it may be more than that, i think the changes i have to make to what i can eat, and the changes in gym lifestyle is too drastic. OK, enough excuses, this week is the final week of my low carb diet *deep breathes*

Went on sort of a shopping spree after gym today. Walked past Royal Sporting House and got myself a pair of shoes, not that i needed it, but just for standby. Did not take long to decide cos it was $60 and my shoe size had always been hard to find.

Stocked up on my vit-c and finally found a new bottle for my protein shake. i need one that could contain around 750ml and fit my cooler box which is kind short. Managed to find one at cold storage, YAY! Also bought a gnc shaker for my friend. He has been dissolving his protein powder in hot water because he can't dissolve it in cold water... but i don't think hot water's good for such mixes.

Did up my before and after pics then decided not to post them because the novelty has worn off. I used to get such a kick out of seeing it but when i saw them again, it just reminded me that i'm still so far off from the body that i want.

But then again, i said i was going to post them already, which was also the reason why i signed up with the photo hosting service, so i thought that i should. If you just had your dinner, you may want to view it later after the food has digested :P



After losing weight, my didi did grow longer and it almost touches the floor now, but i digitally erased it, HAHAHA.

Oh, while taking the "after" photos above, decided on a few more bodily shots since i was naked. Kind of liked my flexed arms, not there yet but slowly getting there i hope

And Let There be Music

Haha, i managed to get my music up thanks to Kastaway who sent the email to Kevin, and Kevin to me... thanks guys.

Was on msn with kevin78 last night, and he finds this site and its contents somewhat crude... haha... i think he was too polite to call it vulgar. But then again, its meant to be like that i guess. In life, we seldom get the chance to be so vulgar without drawing stares and disapproving frowns, so why not do it here in the relative privacy of an internet blog :)

So to all visitors, please don't be offended by my language here, and feel free to leave a vulgar comment yourself, as long as its done tastefully :P

------- this section is for fyxxit (and those who wants to try adding music to their Xanga blog) ------

Step 1, create a free account with Angelfire

Step 2, click on upload file and load your mp3 onto Angelfire.

Step 3, log onto your Xanga account, under Edit select Look and Feel

Step 4, towards the bottom, there is a Music URL field, enter the path of your mp3, e.g. http://www.angelfire.com/[username]/[songname].mp3 where [username] and [songname] is dependant on your own settings lah

Step 5, click on the Save Changes button and you're done..... hopefully..... i say hopefully because it looks like the angelfire site is down at the moment :(

Crap Doesn't Stop Just Because Its A Weekend

Was so looking forward to the weekend, got a few things i wanted to do. Then big boss called me in at 4pm, "i want to discuss this on Monday"

But but but i got no background on this... which means i need to go thru a 700 page document before the meeting :O

CRAP

What a mood spoiler.

If you think homework ends with your school days, think again :(

Wo He Ni Part 2

OK, so i screwed up the translation of the Wo He Ni part i. Anyway, i came up with Wo He Ni part ii, so enjoy :P

Photo Hosting

Signed up with villagephotos so that i can host some images. After signing up i was at a lost at what to upload.... most photos i have are obscene, haha.

OK, i'm publishing an unreleased photo of kastaway... one of those rare ones where his eyes were opened.



SO CUTE!!!

Feels like James Bond

Haha….i feel like James Bond or something. I just got invited to join a government agency as an undercover evaluator, evaluating courses in my area of expertise (during my spare time that is). Sounds interesting but they did not say I’ll get paid for it….hmmm so what’s the point? Anyway, I heard from someone that I’ll get to attend free courses so I guess that is the payback, ok, will apply for it and see what happens.

Geez, a friend just emailed me saying that he is having difficulty getting over his ex. It was a long distance relationship and as with many of such relationships, fidelity has been tested and failed. Problem is, the ex is still messaging him back to say that he thinks of him blah blah blah, and he is now uncertain of his feelings. Haiz, relationships are so complex…anyway told him to forget about his ex and move on. You have to be fair to yourself lor, by clinging on will only put you further into depression and make you uncertain on what to do next.

I would not say that I am the most decisive person in the world, sometimes I take a long time to decide because I want to make the perfect decision. Unfortunately, there is usually no such thing as a perfect solution. Best thing to do is that once you weigh all the pros and cons, and you know what you should do, do it. Don’t look back, only look forward. And once you get far enough, look back if you want but don’t regret the decision, just know that what you did was based on the best of your information and circumstances at that point in time.

Live life.

Post Diet Diet

Went to photobucket last night hoping to create a free account for web hosting of photos but ALAS, it says we are not offering free accounts at the moment, check back later :( Anyone knows of any other free photo hosting sites?

Plan to post my before and after pics next week… kinda decided that this current low carb diet will end tomorrow…. Ok lets not say “end”, lets just say “relaxed”. I will then have to get all my stuff ready for the post diet diet which essentially is a low calorie diet. It is a sad diet but at least I get to cheat once a week. A typical working day’s diet will be as follows

Breakfast: Cereal/Oats, skim milk and protein powder

Tea Break: Protein shake comprising skim milk, protein powder and flaxseed oil

Lunch: Whatever healthy food I can find outside

Tea Break: Either another protein shake (yucks) or prepare something from home

Dinner: Post workout protein shake and a banana (p.s. no sexual reference whatsoever :P)

YIKES!!! Crap! Or what the aussies call Bugger!

Will I survive this diet? Fucking unlikely. But I’m still going to give it a go anyway. Oh, and if you’re wondering what’s for dinner on non-workout days, the answer is that everyday is a workout day, except weekends where I’m entitled to one day off. Ok now I’m convinced that I cannot make it. As with everything else, given time I will try to work out some sort of equilibrium.

The general rule is that food should be low in fat, and no frying is allowed (yah, right). Except the post workout meal, each meal should have one starchy carb (potato, rice etc), one fibrous carb (vege) and protein (meat or protein powder). Each meal should also have an equal split of carbs versus protein. And the daily intake of carbs and protein should be evened out throughout the day. So as you can imagine, I have been preparing my calculations to count how many grams of carbs and protein does each item have and trying to balance them out.

To complicate matters further, the daily nutritional distribution between carb-protein-fat should be 40-40-20, which makes the calculations starting to look 3 dimensional and just too difficult… so I’m keeping the fat intake low and excluding it from my calculations.

Oh, and the supplements are another challenge, besides the multi-vit, I need vit-c during breakfast, lunch and dinner, and either before or after workouts (I cannot recall the sequence because I’m confused already), I need to take supplements like creatine, glutamine and Chromium Picolinate. Ok, I’m depressing myself now, and have to stop here.

Pool Sightings Part VII

I think I’ve figured out why I have been so moody lately, no, I don’t suffer from menses, I’m just suffering from stress.

This time every year is my high stress period, where I get audited. Driving to work today, it felt like some unseen pressure is pushing against my entire body, geez its such an uncomfortable feeling. The stress is so great that every time this year I think of quitting this job just to get out of the audits. But me, being the rational me, knows that it’ll be the same wherever I go (within the same field that is) so what’s the point. But seriously though, I think I’ll try to jump ship after this year and perhaps explore a different type of job.

For the few of you who are regular readers of my blog, I truly appreciate your support thus far and hope you will put up with my bitchiness over the next couple of weeks. Actually come to think of it, you may be entertained…. haha.

Oh, Kastaway… if you’re reading this, I translated your Mandarin text to demonstrate my prowess in the language, haha…

Me and You

You, are beautiful (why thank you)
I, cannot comprehend
On your word “ok”
I’m punctually there
You say you need to go
I can see that its late too
You are fast asleep
I’m feeling good

Hey hey, not bad ah, but if I knew what it meant it would be better :P

I will come up with my own soon to challenge your lame, meaningless one.... haha.

Oh, my second last installment of pool sightings, this one not that exciting lah, sorry bout that fyxxit :(

But it is more on young love and its relative innocence. I still recall the boy, who was probably no more than 15, wearing his red trunks and swimming with a girl. It did not seem like the girl was his girlfriend judging from their body language. At least I felt she may have been a target. So the boy is talking to the girl and the girl seems shy in the way she kept her distance, sitting on the pool ladder while he stood a few feet away. I was beginning to lose hope of something exciting happening until the girl got off the ladder and stretched her leg towards the boy. The boy held her ankle and started rubbing the sole of her foot on his groin area. YEEEEEHA!!! Rub him baby, rub him good!!!

Mamma Mia, Mummy Ah!!!

Went to watch Mamma Mia the Musical this evening, on super cheap seats. They were supposed to be partially obstructed seats and they were, but for a show of this calibre, i was kinda glad that i did not spend more on it.

The singing was not fantastic, between the 2 lead female roles, one of them (the girl's mother) came across like she was more suited to opera.... ah.... reminded me of Shanghai Rocky from Singapore Idol. She did not have that type of soprano voice, it was more like she like holding a note for too long and that essentially caused her to be out of breath for the next note.

The band was a little too thin, i think i could hear 2 keyboards (one piano and one organ), one percussionist, one drummer and one guitarist. Whenever they wanted to portray a larger music sound, they would up the volume to give the impression that a big band was playing :(

The story line was crappy and some of the songs felt misplaced during the show. Supporting singers were 2nd rate, and the aussie accent was less than desirable. Of the 10 supposed "hunks" in the show, only a couple of them could make it, the rest were covered generously with the great aussie flab. That's what eating fries as a snack will do to you.

Not a musical i would recommend, unless you are a die hard Abba fan.

Still not fully recovered from the flu, so must be off to bed. Later.

Directions From the Direction Illiterate

I'm in such a super bitching mood today, i'm just irritated by everything. Maybe the flu is getting me down.

Just told off my mum for the umpteenth time not to question my sense of direction. I don't want to be disrespectful but she just have this thing about directions. She has an almost non-existent sense of direction and she knows it, but to mask it she will pretend that she knows where the place is. When i tell her where it actually is, she will question it. I can accept people questioning my sense of direction but not by a direction illiterate lor. It is like having a hokkien peng correcting my English. Piang oy.

While growing up, i always knew she was bad at directions and one day i thought i would give her a chance to prove me wrong so i followed her directions blindly and as expected she led me to the wrong place, then i kena fucked by dad for leading the entourage the wrong way. Mum's favourite excuse is that they changed the road, OMG, you can use it once or maybe twice but they can't change the road every damn day you know.

Anyway, just now after telling her not to question my directions (in a less than friendly voice) she gave the pitiful tone saying "ask also cannot" which i must admit is better than her usual "i work day and night to feed you, wash your clothes, you treat me like a maid etc etc" *roll eyes*

I countered her by saying you can ask, but you cannot question.

Anyway, things are evened out already... she asked whether i wanted to cheat on my diet by offering durian, i contemplated and decided not to, especially since i can't gym for don't know how many days. *worries*

Dietician My Big Fat Hairy Ass

My blood is fucking boiling at the moment. My auntie colleague got out of a lunch time talk and said that the dietician claims that carbohydrates does not contain fat so it does not cause you to put on weight (I’m sure there is a qualifier behind this like “but you have to exercise regularly blah blah blah” so I’m letting this one slide)

The dietician also told the audience that diets like the Atkins (which I’m on) and Cambridge diets doesn’t work, because if you lose more than 5 kgs, you will gain double back.

WTF??? I have already lost 15kgs this year alone, not counting the weight I lost the past 2 years, are you saying that I’m going to put on 30kgs then? Nah-ah!!! Fucking bull shit I tell you.

I don’t mind if you said that this was an opinion, but as a dietician, people will treat your word as factual and obviously such statements are not. Even if I did start putting weight back on, it will be up to me to correct it with further dietary control. I’m 100% sure I will not let myself slide until I put on that type of weight. The fact that I’m in control of my weight discredit her claims that I will put back double.

Auntie in her usual manner said that I should not get so worked up on this, but then again, why shouldn’t I? Imagine an overweight person contemplating to go on the Atkins diet, but after this talk decided not to. Such statements can essentially ruin a person’s life and one should never portray untruths as truths especially when standing in a position of authority. Its like me, an IT professional, telling a bunch of IT illiterate people that by holding down the delete button for 10 seconds, your whole hard disk will be wiped out. Its not true but it sounds true, and coming from an expert, then it must be fucking true lor.

Anyways, I sent an email to HR to enquire if this pretend dietician is speaking again, if she is, I’m so going to sit in and suan her if she dares to tell such lies again. Auntie is so worried and have been giving me 101 excuses not to do it, I told her that she is so protective of the dietician probably because both of them are talk cock experts :P

So what’s in it for me? Nothing, except the satisfaction that I may have stopped a gross injustice to my overweight colleagues. *ANGRY* >:(

Height Issues

The dumbest thing i did this weekend was to mistake Forum for Wisma. Had to go pick my cousin up from Forum so called their GNC branch to reserve something, after getting there they did not have my stuff and like WTF... now that i think back, i called Wisma instead. So had to run down to Wisma and back >:( The glassy facade of both malls caused the confusion i guess.

Started to get the sniffles, and a few sneezing bouts last night, feels like the flu is looming in the horizon but hang on a minute, i just fell ill last month, so its kind of quick for me to fall ill again so soon after. Anyways, hope to sleep early tonight, oh, but i can't, dad tasked me to do something later, so earliest time to bed is still 11+ *frowns*

If you just came from kastaway's blog, you would have known that i went clubbing with him and fyxxit last night. Fyxxit was so taken by my height (1.93m) and said he felt short among us. Being the tallest guy at Happy wasn't exactly a good thing, i assume that people stared at me because of my height... especially those shorties who had to strain their necks to look up. As usual, while walking through the crowd, there will be those who will straighten up just to compare their height relative to mine. One guy even stood tip-toed as some sort of a joke i guess. LAME. Then there was this guy who suddenly told me that his friend Lawrence wanted to know me, but then Lawrence was kinda disinterested which i found strange, then he apologised to me and said his friend was just kidding.... so as you can imagine, i was starting to be the freak show of sorts.

Later at Tabz, at least i was no longer the tallest there, saw around 3 angmohs and 1 chinese guy either my height or taller than myself, YAY!!!

Woke up this afternoon to the voice of my mum telling me its noon, immediately followed by the voice of my grandma complaining to mum that i was not at home when she took a leak at 4.30am. That complaint did not draw any response from my mum because she knows better. Was quite upset with my grandma though, i felt uncomfortable that she has to question my whereabouts. But knowing better i let it slide, she's just showing concern i guess.

Had breakfast (or lunch) then drove grandma to Tampines. Since i was there, decided to gym at SAFRA Tampines. I like going there occasionally to check out fresh faces and catch old faces. Saw 2 guys who used to frequent tpy but not anymore, 1st guy i got sort of a crush on, so was happy to see him again :P Second guy is my height but very skinny the last time i saw him. 6 months later, WAH, he started growing muscles liao, and looked very different, but still as cute, heh heh.

Since i was at Tampines, decided to drop by my best friend's brother's place because they needed some advice on something. Legal advice of sorts. No, i'm not a lawyer, they just wanted a different point of view. They got deceived by their property agent and don't want to pay the fees. Problem is, they got so worked up about the deception that they just not thinking straight. I did some business law in the uni before so i had some idea on how the courts generally worked. I told them to put their emotions aside and deal with this rationally. Yes the agent deceived you but she ain't gonna get the death penalty for it. Left 2.5 hours later feeling quite good with myself, they were thankful that i had new insights on their problem. The wife said that among their siblings, they have all been coming up with vengeful solutions because naturally their siblings are just looking out for their interest. Wait a minute, so you did not think i will look out for your interest? She replied, "no lah, its just that we are not as rational as you"

*BEAMS*

Pool Sightings Part VI

My right leg feels weird... it gets that pins and needles feeling very often and i'm starting to get worried... the blood is just not circulating well there and i wonder how it could be.

I love the veins on my arms, but i feel that the veins showing on the legs are kinda disgusting, don't know why... maybe i'm just not a leg person :P

One other thing i dislike is nipple hair... i find those really disgusting. Mine is starting to grow again, time to pluck them off. Stupid question isn't it, of course it hurts. But having sucked on a shaved nipple before, i kinda think plucking is the way to go.

What's up with guys keeping hairy nipples, they are such a turn off especially those whose only hair on their chest is surrounding their nipples, GROSS!!! *puke*

Talk about hairy nipples, my colleague who is getting married at the end of the month has really gross ones. After a swim, it looks like there are 2 black gigantic sperm biting his nipples *yucks* Seriously lah, his nipple hair when wet looks like growing a tail like that.

Last week he asked me to help drive my car on that day as part of the wedding entourage. OK lor, but knowing that he has close to no friends, i suspect that's not all he wants me to do. Please please please don't ask me to be the MC, i got nothing good to say. A bit of relief when he told me he wants me to be the overall co-ordinator for the wedding dinner. Much more work but less embarrassing than being the MC lor. Phew! Anyway, i kinda recognise i do have a certain level of organisational skills. Especially in an emergency, i have an inate ability to keep calm under stress. OK, not always lah, but often :) Blowing my own trumpet, haha. :P

Oh, saw this rather cute, young guy at the gym today. He got completely naked before wrapping the towel around his waist.... my favourite method, haha. Was quite turned on by his rather long didi, haven't seen such a long one for some time already :) So long that if i were to kum, i think his head will come out my ass :P~~~

Talk about long dicks, this is the last pool sighting for the gay couple i was talking about. I suspect that it must have been the younger guy's birthday because all his friends (about 5 or 6 of them) proceeded to strip him of his trunks. Because of the struggle and splashing, did not have a good look. Once the trunks were off, he went str8 to the corner of the pool and stood facing the corner to hide his royal jewels. The "gang bangers" were some distance away waving his trunks in the air and challenging the naked boy to come retrieve it. They were not all gay i don't think, a couple of them were neighbours living around here, these were mostly teenagers i'm talking about.

After failing to convince naked boy to come to them, they all swam towards the victim in a group. Sensing the inevitable "attack", naked boy turned around and boldly faced them while they approached. OMG, his erect tool must have been 6" and it was like freaking thick as well. When the group got to him, each either grabbed an arm or leg and hoisted him out of the water because they wanted to reveal his didi out of the water *nose bleed* That's not the best part, while they were grabbing him, someone actually gave him a couple of strokes using his thumb and 2 fingers.... geez, what a turn on. As you can imagine, that sight of seeing someone ravaged has been engraved in my mind ever since *reminiscing*

King of Cannot Make It

Imagine this, layers of crepes over a generous layer of mango, topped off with mango sauce and a scoop of vanilla ice cream... how to resist? *yum* After 2 months and almost losing 10 kgs, that was the most sinful food i had and thoroughly enjoyed it. Too bad, today was the last day of my course, tomorrow is back to diet again :(

At the gym today, once i started my cardio, i could feel the strain on my legs, i'm overdoing it. Yesterday already almost got cramps after the cardio, today the discomfort hit me immediately. Wanted to stop but the guilt of my mango crepe haunted me so i soldiered on. Tomorrow i am so going to take a break, hmmm, since its Thursday, i think i will enjoy a quiet evening with Singapore Idol.

Sms-ed kastaway to tell him that i was toying with the idea to go tc, asked him whether he thinks given my age and physical shape, will i feel out of place there. Asking him to be brutally honest, he replied that i would *ouch*. I know i cannot make it, but i guess i needed to hear it to bring me back to reality. At least i'm glad that he could be honest with me :)

I wore my favourite t-shirt after gym today, its a tommy t and i have not worn it for months because it was starting to show some wear and tear so i decided to lay off it for a while. Putting it on, geez, its has become so big on me and i look so odd in it. I so gotta get new clothes man. On monday i said i wanted to go KL again... clothes shopping. On the same day my KL friend coincidentally emailed me (the first time in a few months) to ask when i was going up again, wah, this is a sign... a sign i tell you!

Oh, after my shower at the gym, this guy in the lockers kept looking at me, a total of 3 to 4 times. I noticed because i stood to his side and could see him from the corner of my eye. He's not cute lah, like me, he was also cannot make it. Haha, at least i still attract stares, i'm the King of cannot make it :)

Pool Sightings Part V

First and foremost, i re-measured and re-calculated my body fat percentage, and it dropped from 27% to 23%. Still unacceptable but thinking it over, i think the formula may be flawed... using weight and waist without considering height seems a bit dodgy to me.

Feels so sinful, the 2nd day of my break in diet and i'm losing control and i think i like it, i like it. :P

Went to buy a sleeveless top after class today, for saturday night... $39 less 50%, cheap and nice... but but but..... i not sure if i'm going yet. I got demons fighting inside me and i'm not ready to spill my guts on it yet, nor have i sufficiently gathered my thoughts on the matter yet, so blogging that out requires more contemplation.

Went to gym after that... wah lao ay today sweat like a pig siaz, must be the increase carb intake.... but then i noticed they left the main door open, oh, aircon spoil lah, sometimes i talk cock only :(

While changing to leave, noticed this guy who had his undies on (assumed), and a towel wrapped around his waist. While wearing his jeans, he was struggling to wear it over his towel.... what's up with that man? He must be either very gay or very str8... very gay because he needs to protect his vanity so tightly or maybe he got a jealous bf. Or he could be very str8 because he is scared he'll be a turn-on to the wrong target market... go figure because i can't.

I also can't stand those people who are super ugly and yet super modest... come on lah, nobody's going to be interested ok, geez. I don't bother myself because i know if people choose to see its their loss not mine. My didi looks so gross that the only way i'll ever get a bj is in a desert, by someone dying of thirst :P

Talking about didis, here comes fyxxit's dose of medicine, pool sightings... haha. Remember the 2 guys i was talking about earlier? One occasion they were sitting facing each other at the plastic tables around the pool, the older guy will stretch his leg and rest it on the arm rest of the younger guy. Partially blocked by the table, the older guy occasionally will lower his foot and pinch the young guy's didi between his big toe and 2nd toe. Using his toes, he will also scratch the young guy's didi to harden it. Of course can see the young guy is having an erection lah, but what was worse, the older guy used his toes to adjust the dick so that it peeps out at the top of the trunks *faint*

New Pants

Woke up early this morning to send my Aussie cousin and her husband to Golden Mile where they caught a bus to KL. I so wished that i could go as well. In fact, this time last year i was in KL for my friend's wedding, must plan a trip up soon, to buy clothes! And go for cheap massage! *winks*

On course for a few days, and i'm sitting next to this girl from HK, kind of sweet and started a conversation with her 1st thing in the morning *grin* She's not exactly the sexy type, but more of the sweet girl whom you'll readily bring home to meet mum... got kinda excited when throughout the morning i could sense that she kept looking at me. Checked for a ring and did not see one, heh heh..... then during lunch, she was talking to another HK lady, and she said in cantonese ....ngor ka lam pun yeow.... NOOOOOOO!!!!!!! Bitch. :P

Most of the participants were foreigners, including a few Thais, one named Nut who did not make much sense, and another named Moo who had cup size C breasts, appropriate names i guess.

Anyways, i was super off my diet today because its not practical to find low carb food during my course. I was such a sinful greedy slut. For the first time in 8 weeks (besides mooncakes that is), i had a few high carb items like bread, a samosa, a slice of kueh lapis (tea breaks) and a wedge of indian naan bread (lunch). The rest were relatively low carb stuff. They served buffet lunch so i was out of control, almost out of control lah... i successfully resisted having any dessert whatsoever, YEAH!!! Will have to hit the gym tonight to burn off some of these carbs, sianz.

Was a bit bored and decided to do a calculation of my body fat percentage which adopts a formula using my body weight and waist measurement.... geez, it says my body fat percentage is around 27% and like WTF, that's bad man.... i must re-measure again cos i'm so buay song with it.

Bought another pair of new pants last week and i was so happy with them when i tried them on, but wearing them for the first time today, the cutting's not that fantastic after all. They tend to crush my nuts.... not implying that i got huge nuts lah, just the cutting is not ideally suited for me lor. Then when i took a leak, the zip is a bit on the high side, so my didi had to do some climbing before it could spray, these are the things you don't check when buying a pair of pants lor :(

Stretch Marks

My best friend took the decision to quit smoking last year, i follow suit one week later. He did not manage to kick the habit though, while i succeeded. He just sms me to say he is trying again. I'm just so estatic with this, he may not succeed but at least he is trying. Which is definitely better than just drifting along and not doing anything about it. Just got another sms from him, he is quitting this time as a birthday gift to his wife.... awwwww so sweet. I'm confident he'll succeed this time.

Got into office at 3.15 am this morning, all our systems started coming back online from 4.30am onwards. One of my systems did not make it, CRAP! So was stuck in the office till 9.30am until it was finally up and running. Made the mistake of wearing t-shirt and shorts, because the aircon was off, i thought i would wear as light as possible. Little did i expect that my system would not re-start so for the most part of recovery, i had to stand in the freezing cold, stupid idiot.

While waiting around earlier, started discussing with the rest on mobile phones. My mum's phone is available for trade-in and my dad wants to do it before the value drops further. Consensus is that i should stick with Nokia because once you get used to the interface, its quite difficult to get used to other phones. I agree. I played with my dad's sony-ericcson and almost deleted something :P

Trouble is, i want one with a radio and a good camera... but there are no such models unfortunately. So i may just settle for one with a radio at the moment. Then the next question is why do i need a new one, the current one matches my criteria. Geez.

Dropped my pants to change for gym earlier, then i decided i was too lazy and deserve a break today. And i just saw the most disgusting thing on my body.... STRETCH MARKS!!! I did not notice them before, but in the past weeks i guess they became more obvious :( Wonder if there is a miracle cream for this. Yeah, it'll probably be called Stretch Away or something.

Pool Sightings Part IV

Went to Cali gym with Kastaway. Sneaked in using my brother's card :P

OMG, there are tonnes of cute guys there. One cutie looked at me twice in the lockers but i just did not have the guts to look back and smile, i'm not used to it lor, chey, so upset with myself.

Generally, i did not like the place because it was crowded, and even if it wasn't, the machines were too many and placed too close to each other giving me a sense of claustrophobia. Since the weight stations were all taken, decided to go for my cardio on the striding machine. Not used to their machines because i kept kicking my knee on the handles. I wanted to stop but since i already got on and there were so many people behind me, i thought it would not be cool so i continued on.

Getting off the machine was also a problem, the space between machines is like one foot or so, my damn foot is already one foot long (12 inches) so it was difficult maneuvering off. Not surprisingly, i kicked the neighbouring machine and had to apologise to the lady, so embarassing siaz.... of course the row behind me can see the free show lor, ccb.

Only consolation was the fact that this really really cute guy was using the threadmill in front of me, *drool*. Pointed him out to kastaway but apparently our taste in guys are quite different.

OK, to cheer fyxxit up, i will post another pool sighting... today is a gay encounter. The older guy was mid 20s while the younger guy was around 15 or 16. Everytime they are in the pool, the older guy will submerge into the water and start biting on the young guy's privates through his trunks. I guess that's better than pulling it out entirely and giving him a bj lor. If there were people around them, they would be less obvious and feel each other's privates whenever they were close enough. The sad thing is that the older guy have also done similar actions with a different, younger guy, he's such a paedophile.

OK, i will stop there. There are another 2 different sightings related to this group so stay tuned yeah? I gotta crash early today so that i can make it into office by 4am to help check our systems. Sian.

Fantastic Statistics

I love spreadsheets, they make calculations so easy...if you haven't learnt to use them, you should, seriously.

My irregular weight record since i started my first diet till now.

Date__Weight(kg)__Average Daily (+) or (-) in grammes

21/02__109.7__+15.38 (start of diet1)
14/03__104.5__-236.36
22/03__103.8__-87.5
27/03__102.0__-360
10/04__100.5__-107.14
29/04__098.3__-115.79 (end of diet1)
27/05__100.0__+60.71
20/06__101.1__+45.83
13/07__102.4__+56.52
13/09__098.5__-62.9 (start of diet2)
20/09__098.6__+14.29
02/10__097.9__-58.33
07/10__096.4__-300
08/10__095.6__-800 (don't ask, i guess its a freak result although i checked the scale about 5 times)

Pool Sightings Part III

Technology SUCKS... i mentioned earlier that i was erasing target out of life, one of the reason being that she ignored my email for a week. Just discovered that she did reply my email on the same day but it got bounced so i never received it. Geez, if i was confused earlier, i'm entirely lost now.... I'll leave that alone for the moment.

Ah, pants.....It’s not that I’m new to wearing pants but I was kinda appalled by the fact that I’m re-learning how to wear them. In the past months, I have been wearing my old pants without unzipping them first because they are so loose that I can pull them up like shorts. I did not want to buy new pants because they will probably not last long (I am not yet done with my diet) and buying pants is, to me, a sign of defeat, that I accept my size and want to give up the fight. I know its psychological but these are the things that drive my will and discipline.

Unfortunately though, due to some important meetings I had to attend, I went out to buy myself a pair of work pants finally, so now i have to re-learn to zip up after I put them on. So yesterday, after half the morning went by, I noticed a slight draft on my crotch, lo and behold, I had forgotten to zip up since I put my pants on in the morning. Later in the afternoon, I went for a crap and again, I forgot to zip up…make me feel like an exhibitionist, haha.

Oh, I just found out what a shameless hypocrite I am. Every time I hear the phrase “one man’s meat is another man’s poison” I will quietly giggle to myself because meat in slang (eg in Australian usage) refers to the wee wee. Kastaway may have some unwanted stuff that I could use, so when I smsed him using that phrase, he replied that he was not aware that his meat was poisonous because it only contained trace amount of protein in it. I chewed him up on how vulgar he was when in fact I have always been guilty of the same thought. :p Sorry dude.

Was in the gym last night when they aired Singapore Idol. Kind of strange that when Olinda took to the stage, the trainer increased the tv volume and about 6 guys gathered in front of the tv to watch her. By the time Sylvester came on, everyone dispersed already >:( No respect whatsoever. Looks like Olinda is now a crowd favourite…. Or perhaps the guys at the gym can relate to her since her physique matches theirs, haha. *wicked smirk*

This installment of pool sightings may prove unusual. Imagine this, geeky schoolboy around 17 years old in a pinkish pair of trunks, with his newly acquired girlfriend. Newly acquired in the sense that he feels quite uncertain, he fidgeted a bit, he is shy to grab hold of her and his actions were all so awkward. He tried to catch her a couple of times while she was swimming by but missed due to his hesitation. So cute. Later on, something was amiss…he was like looking down at his trunks and his actions were stiff and a little retarded. Golly gee….i could notice a dark patch towards the top of his pink trunks, yep, in the excitement of playing catch with the girlfriend, he cummed :O The girlfriend was a couple of metres away and did not approach him because she did not know what to do either, geez, as if there is anything anyone could do. But finally, out of curiosity, she stepped forward to have a better look, the guy was unusually brave and did not turn away, instead he stood his ground and let her look. They were stunned for a moment and had a discussion on what to do next, ok lah, maybe it is not so casual as a discussion, they had an emergency crisis brain-storming session. Finally she went up to get the towel and waited by the pool, ready for him to wrap the towel around himself to hide the accident. Haiz, poor thing.

Malaysian Movie: Sepet

Celebrated my friend’s birthday last night, went to Phin’s Steak (I think that’s the name) at the ground level of Cineleisure. While waiting for him to arrive, went to Heeren’s HMV to browse the DVD section… I got so many DVDs I wanna get but too bad they are out of budget due to my expenditure on my GNC supplements. :(

Proceeded down to Centrepoint’s Royal Sporting House, oh no! They had a pair of shoes in my size (US13) and on sale. And got a cool Adidas T which I wanted to get but no no no, cannot cannot… non essentials are off the list.

Dinner was ok, not as good as the Toa Payoh steak place that I frequent but each got their own style I guess. Was kinda looking forward to dinner because I told myself I will cheat and have my forbidden carbohydrates, but my rational self got the better of me, I took about a half inch cube of my baked potato and gave the rest to birthday boy who thinks he is underweight and trying to bulk up. Actually I don’t think he is underweight, and neither does he think I’m overweight so I not going to argue with him on that.

After dinner, went to Sembawang Music Centre, wanted to get a couple of CDs but again, non essential :( Proceeded to catch a movie upstairs which I found to be quite entertaining.

The movie is called Sepet, which is the Malay word for slit as in mata sepet meaning slit-eyes, a somewhat derogatory reference used to refer to Chinese. Set in Malaysia, or Ipoh to be precise, the movie was a poignant tale of a Chinese boy and Malay girl, of their forbidden love and social pressures. Littered with touching moments of intensive parental love and the hilarious antics of the girl’s quirky family makes this movie a worthwhile flick to catch. Set in modern Malaysia, the lifestyle and settings reminded me of 70’s and 80’s Singapore, where cane furniture and shophouses with unfinished cement flooring were common.

I felt that the movie tried to communicate too many messages to the viewer thereby losing a bit of its effectiveness. However, I empathize with the writer’s reason for doing so as this would have reached out to touch a wider audience base. Filmed in a mixture of English, Malay, Cantonese and Hokkien, the subtitles were a necessity but I guess a small price to pay for trying to preserve the authenticity of language diversity in Malaysia. The ending was disappointingly predictable and lacks the oomph of a tear-jerker which I believe the movie was originally intended to be, but I’ll still recommend it.

As a bonus, the male lead, Ng Choo Seong is rather cute in a goofy kind of way… and has a great bod as well :p~~~ My favourite quote of the movie would be “What is the problem with loving someone from another race? It is when you hate someone due to race that’s the problem.”

Target is Down, Over & Out

Target is down, and I feel….relieved….liberated….apprehensive….disappointed…. no, I think I feel confused.

Don’t want to go into that much details because it ain’t worth the trouble, but 2 incidents led me to erase target out of my life, firstly, she pulled out of going for dinner without giving any reason nor apologizing for it, and secondly, she has ignored responding to my email for a week. I just don’t have a good feeling on where such a relationship will head.

Furthermore, I think I am not ready to enter a relationship now. Target entered the picture at an inopportune time, when I was just about to start a diet which makes social engagements a big headache. She and her best friend did comment that I looked fine as I was, but I guess that was their opinion and I felt differently. The motivation behind my diet is also questionable, am I doing it because I seek to find my perfect partner or am I doing it to have some fun before I settle down.

Saw a quarrelling couple at the gym yesterday, geez…they were starting to raise their voices and the gym was quite packed, I don’t know but I can’t do that in public. Anyway, a lot of people were starting to stare at them but I could tell that the woman was a bitch. Not to say the guy was not at fault (I did not hear what the fight was about), but the girl had that type of rebellious personality. Anyway, hope they had sex and made up already ;p

Kind of happy with how my chest is developing (or should I say un-developing). I would not say I got man-boobs but I have more fat there than I want. Slowly but surely I can see the fat starting to disappear. Still got a long way to go though.

Soon, I think I will post my before and after pics… I took naked (non-erotic) photos of myself before, during and after diet1, and also before I started the current diet. Comparing the earlier pics, I’m quite surprised and pleased with how far I have progressed. Yeah, after this current diet, you may get to see the me in February and the me now.

Talking about dieting, I slipped into a craving mode the past couple of weeks, I craved for prata, char kueh, cakes etc, which was a sure sign that my diet is at the tail end already. But cheating really helps reduce some of those cravings so my only worry now is that the diet drags on for too long. Oh….on a 3-day course next week, craps, forgotten about that…I’ll have to come off the diet during those 3 days because finding low carb food for morning tea, lunch and afternoon tea sounds too damn daunting a task. Also, my Ah Du/Du De Wei colleague’s wedding is later this month, hmmm, since I’m helping out that day I may target my diet to end before then.

Ok, you’re wondering why, despite my bitching about him, am I still helping out at his wedding. I still treat him as a friend, and he hardly has any friends, come to think of it, I have never in the 4 years I’ve known him, met any of his other friends because I suspect he don’t got any.

Pool Sightings Part II

Went to the gym yesterday on an empty stomach, this book which I’m reading recommends working out after not eating for 3 hours, crap, how can I tahan that?

Anyways, arrived at the gym hungry and apprehensive, I’m not exactly the kind of guy that can be easily carried off if I faint, maybe drag can lah. So this book says to drink plenty of water to dull the appetite, and since I was oh, so hungry, I drank so much water that at one stage I almost puked, geez I’m pathetic.

When you are hungry and doing weights, I noticed that you kind of sweat more profusely. I guess everything went well until I got to my cardio portion, I usually do 30 mins on the striding machine and when the timer hit 20 mins, my legs were nwa already and I swear if that machine had a “crawl” option, I would have hit it immediately. But I followed the advice of local singing star Ah Du, I jian chi dao di and the experience was ok, I mean I will do it again, matter of getting used to it.

Talking about Ah Du, or Ado, kind of a funny story I wanted to relate. When I first heard jian chi dao di I was quite taken by it and I was actually in a toy shop with a colleague (who stays a block away from kastaway actually). The owner of the toy shop had the song on repeat so it kept going over and over again, I guess after the fifth time it got kind of weird, but anyway when we left, I asked my colleague what song was that and who was the singer. He replied that he not sure about the title but said “the singer is Ah Du, Du De Wei (Alex To)”. OK lor, went to Gramophone and looked through the entire Alex To collection with no luck, finally had to sing the damn song to the staff there, chaocheebye. Of course its not Alex To lor, its Ado…. This is just one of the many things that really piss me off about this colleague of mine, don’t know still want to pretend he knows. He has this inferiority complex that I really hate, he knows that he ain’t exactly that bright but he tries to compensate it by portraying that he is. Haiz, enough said, my blood pressure’s rising.

Read Kastaway’s blog last night, and he said “it seems im startin too many new 'friendships' there aint enough time to 'cover' all of them. and ma tight army schedule doesnt help either.”

*raises hand* ok, I’m guilty as charged… I may have inevitably put undue pressure on him…I’m not apologizing because I know that’s not what he meant, he wants to devote time to his friends but he just don’t have the time. And he doesn’t want fewer friend either, he just wishes he has more time. Silly boy, doesn’t he know that all his problems will be solved if he can just be an asshole and drive everyone away, haha. OK, I’ve decided to lay low for the moment *borrows the invisibility cloak from Harry Potter* There, now I’m invisible.

Actually I’m quite impressed by how easily he can make friends, he is not exactly a super-nice guy, nor a super-charming guy, but he has this charisma about him that makes people sit up and notice. Jes, in his blog, aptly pointed out how considerate Kastaway is, I am also impressed by his loyalty to his friends. All in, I guess people are attracted to the entire package. Oh, looks wise… erm…. I told him before lor, he looks good with his mouth closed. :

Oh, oh, let’s move on to the pool sightings segment. Another incident I can recall was this NS boy quite a few years back and he has (or had) this girlfriend and they swan quite often. On a few occasions, the girl while standing in front of the guy will reach back and squeeze his crotch before swimming off. As a sort of “revenge”, the next time the guy is close enough, he will sort of hug her from behind and slips his index finger into her costume and rub her pussy with a circular motion, tsk tsk tsk.

Message to Redemption

Hi Redemption,

I do not know where is the appropriate place to write this, so I thought I’d write it here.

I’m sadden to learn the demise of your granddad, dealing with the loss of a loved one is never easy. And I’m confident that your granddad will forgive you, because he knows that you loved him as well, that you felt genuinely sorry in your heart, that you went back to see him during his final days.

When I lost my paternal grandma two years back, my dad cried the loudest at the cremation, strangely enough he was the least close to my grandma and I can only guess that his tears were those of regret. He was not close to my grandma because she could not take care of all her 9 children, so some of her children (like my dad) had to live with his older siblings and I guess he may have been sore about that.

After staying with numerous families, helping to take care of her 34 grandchildren, my grandma’s later years were spent with our family because I was her youngest grandchild in Singapore so we were her last stop. For so many years of selflessly giving herself to her children and grandchildren, and for offering to help take care of my brother and I even though she was not close to my dad, I was thankful to her and performed my duties as a grandson to the best of my abilities, fetching her to my aunt’s place, bringing her out for dinner, for her medical appointments, rushing to her side when she fell….

One night while she was hospitalised, the nurse called after midnight when everyone was already asleep, “your grandma has been placed on the critically ill list”, which is their way of telling you “can go anytime”. Since everyone was sleeping, I drove to the hospital alone and spent an hour holding her hand. She was unconscious throughout my visit, and she would not have known who came. But the visit was not to make her feel better, it was for me to say I’m sorry for not doing enough through the years, remorse filled my heart and I felt I have let her down. When I left the ward, I broke down and cried, because I knew that visit was my farewell bid to her.

Everybody has their own way of saying goodbye, at the wake, my maternal grandma pounded on the coffin glass to ask my demised grandma to get up to play one last hand of cards, their favourite pastime. That thought makes me tear even today. We all need our closure and I was kind of glad that I found mine.

No matter how close or distant we felt to that someone, I still believe that we all feel some sort of regret when we lose a loved one, regret for the things we said or did not say, the things we done or did not do. I know my grandma holds no disappointment in me, it is me who holds such disappointment in myself. Which I guess that’s why I try to be a better person, and cherish the time I have with my loved ones.

Be strong.

Pool Sightings Part I

My biological clock went off yesterday.... my fault. Went to gym in the morning, actually the sun was so hot i wanted to go swimming instead but forced myself to gym. After getting home, i took a nap in the afternoon which lasted from 4.30pm to 10.15pm. OH NO! As expected, i could not sleep till 3+am :(

Woke up this morning at 7.30am, not too sure why so early but there was this 40+ year-old uncle playing b-ball at that time, alone... he plays rather often like almost everyday, but today, the sound of his bouncing ball was kind of loud and i'm sure the people staying nearer to the b-ball court must be cursing. Although he plays so often but his shooting percentage is atrocious, looks like only 20% :( Anyway, the rain brought some relief, not from the heat but that uncle packed up once the rain started.

Sent my grandma to church this morning so had 3 hours to kill before picking her up again, decided to go to Taka for the sale. Spent over an hour in the sports department, had stuff that i wanted but none that i needed so did not buy anything there. I did leave with something from the kitchen department though, decided to buy this lunch box and thermal flask set which will come in handy during my so-called post diet diet. Leave the details for another day.

Parking for 2.5 hours amounted to over $5, like :O That's daylight robbery, must remember not to park there in future, especially on a sunday morning.

Got home and the sun was as good as yesterday... YEAH!!! Went for a swim immediately. While putting on my goggles, ALAMAK, i forgot i needed a new pair. So frustrated to have forgotten to look for a pair earlier >:( It did not occur to me earlier because my current pair has a crack at the side but was still usable, after my swim, the crack became a break, so i need a new pair after all. Went back again in the evening to get it, haiz, so troublesome.

At the pool, say this really cute guy.... with the girlfriend :( The girlfriend is the type with her hands all over him one, reminds me of the numerous pool sightings i had over the years :) Which brings me to why the title says part i.... i got a few sightings to go through so won't blow it all at one go *winks*

One of the memorable incidents many years back was this couple in the pool, they were both in their early to mid 20's, they were slightly older than myself then. The guy was really cute and i recall sneaking peeks at him whenever we were at the bus stop together :)

Anyway, the girl had her hands all over him and at one stage, she slipped both her index fingers into the side of his trunks running the back of her fingers along his balls *jealous*. Man, what a turn on that was. A short while later, my guess was that they guy got hard, so he said something to her and she untied his trunks and reached in to adjust his erection *faints*

I was not in the pool then, i was at home looking down, what many people fail to realise is that although doing stuff under the water is "hidden" but its only hidden from people at ground level... people looking from above have an unbelievably clear view... well now you know :P

Balancing Act

Was reading a bit of eddax's blog http://eddax.livejournal.com/

A nice read for someone like me who is also on a diet cum gym combo, was interesting what he said about the advantages and disadvantages of weight loss which triggered something in my mind.

One of the thing i hate about having loss some weight is the fact that you need to literally re-adjust your toilet habits. Previously, with a fatter ass, when i sit on the toilet its like, "Hello, i'm here"... now, it is like "Oops, too much to the left" etc so a bit of re-adjustment or balancing needs to be done.

People with tiny asses may find it natural, but geez, it ain't for me. Its like learning to ride a bicycle all over again. Hmmm... i just wonder what those really really skinny people do, must be a damn chore to have to balance precariously on the toilet seat while mustering enough strength to squeeze those toxic pieces of shit out da ass.... haha, i'm getting gross and will stop.

Just went to catch White Chicks at Cineleisure, man what a lame movie. It has no real plot, no real substance, the acting was atrocious and most of the laughs were cheap. OK, if you were there just for the mindless jokes then i guess you can try catching it. I did find myself uncharacteristically laughing aloud at Terry Crews' singing cum gesturing of Vanessa Carlton's A Thousand Miles, that for me was really hilarious.

Before the movie, went to Taka to buy a birthday gift for a friend. Did not know that the sports dept had 20% off nett priced items, and on top of that, i enjoy an additional 10% for using the Taka card, yeah!!! Due to the time constraint, did not have much time to look around so may pop by again this weekend.... but come to think of it, i don't really need any clothes at the moment so why bother :( i'm such a sucker for sale events